Time For A New Look And A Tidy Up!

OK, now I know I've been a bad, bad blogger but there are reasons. Forty of them to be precise. Yup, I turned 40 and bizarrely I felt kind of down about it. Weird, eh? I so didn't see that coming...

I mean I know 40 is a 'round' birthday but I never expected it to hit me like it did. One minute I'm looking in the mirror applying some lipstick and the next I'm crying... how odd... I shrug it off as just a one off moment of feeling low but NO! A few days later I'm shopping in the local Staples (trying to cheer myself up in retrospect by feeding my stationery addiction - see this earlier post for more information on this addiction), I bump in to a friend, leave, get in the car and up with tears streaming down my face. Why? Why? Why? Rationally I know it's just another day, another year so why the freaking out over it? It came out of nowhere, I truly never gave much thought to it before but then I found myself doing nothing but think about it.

Richard, bless him, tried his best to cheer me up, like only a man can. "It's just another day, darling. June 16th is no different than June 15th or June 17th. You don't look 40... and at least you don't have grey hair - unlike me!" Now whether I look 40 or not is besides the point, as anyone woman will know these things just don't help. And anyway I blame him, it's his fault I felt so bad! I finally figured out, after much thought and consideration, that it was because I'm turning 40 before he does! He doesn't hit that milestone until next year and for some reason this did really upset me. I could handle turning 40 so much better if he had done it first. LOL. Strange but true. And once I finally figured this out, internally digested and rationalised it, you know what? I felt OK.

And what did I do for my 40th? We went to Paris. For a long weekend. Without the children... It was great and now I'm saying that I'm only as old as the man that I feel - so that makes me 38, well, at least for another few months...

So on that note I'm revamping my blog, tidying it up by adding links to pages instead of cluttering up my main page, getting rid of old stuff, bringing new stuff in. So bear with me if stuff seems to disappear, normal service will resume shortly...