That's what I'm praying for us this year. I am so glad to see the back of 2008. Not. A. Good. Year.
So any resolutions for 2009? Mine? Firstly to stop living in fear and anxiety. Enough. Is. Enough. The last 6 months I have been plagued with fear and anxiety to the point where I haven't been sleeping well, I've had a constant sharp pain in my heart area and have just felt like I was living under a cloud. It increased exponentially a couple of weeks before Christmas. I know the why's (my brothers suicide in June [devastating] followed by the sudden death of my cousin shortly before Christmas) and my head knows it's ridiculous but trying to get my feelings to listen to my head is not easy at the best of times.
But, as I've said, enough is enough and I am going to make a conscious choice to not allow my feelings to get the better of me. What's the worse thing that can happen? If the most awful, terrible thing happened would worrying about it stop it? Would it make things/life up until that point better? In a word. No. So why waste time in worrying and being anxious?
It seems to be working :D
I fell to sleep last night, as I usually do, praying, chatting over my day with 'Dad' and had the best nights sleep in a long time. Choice. It all comes down to the choices we make. Hoping, wishing and praying that we all make the right choices this year.
Saturday, 3 January 2009
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